Let God Be God

41 “Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, 42 but few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.”~ Luke 10: 41-42

It is so easy to get distracted. We spend our whole life praying for others, especially our children that we put ourselves on the back burner. I recently found myself struggling in my current life status. As my husband & children are reinventing themselves, accepting new opportunities and promotions my role is forever evolving both personally and professionally as a support person. I find myself experiencing what in my human eyes  seems to be set backwards in my career, and I find myself wondering how did I get here? Or even more so what is God doing here? I find myself always second guessing my choices and decisions because I have always put family first. Although I am extremely grateful for answered prayer, there is still this little voice of doubt and dissolution with my current station in life. Much like Martha I have worked hard my entire life taking care of everyone and I find myself wondering when is it my turn to have God shine on this very dry area of my life? My career has been the thorn in myside, the thing that has suffered and I have struggled with as I fulfilled my many roles as wife and mother. For you it maybe something else, relationships, mental or physical health. We have all done the right things for seemingly all the right reasons, and then asked the question when is will it be my turn?

The truth is when we have done all that is humanly possible to position yourself, it's time to sit at the feet of Jesus and listen, like Mary. It humbling to realize that you are not the captain of your ship and allow God todo what he does best in HIS TIMING but that's what we must do. You can only take yourself so far and no matter how much we smile on the outside, God sees the frustration raging on the inside when we do all the right things for what seems to be the right reasons, and do what just needs to be done instead of asking God's what should be done?

So now the ball is in our court, what is our next step? How will we navigate through this season that seems like a set back, just settling, or continue to just doing what needs to be done? Knowing that the choices you have made have not yielded the results you desire no matter how needful the work is? The start of change is to stop focusing on what everyone else is doing, and even what you need to be for everyone else, and just be who God created you to be. Perspective is very subjective. What we see as a set back, in God's eyes is a set up for better. Sometimes the answer is be your best self, while taking better care of yourself and let God be God. 
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